** अजूनही कळत नाही **

कसा ओढला गेलो मी
कसा गुंतत गेलो
ठरवूनही स्वतःला
सावरू नाही शकलो असं काय होत तुझ्यात
तेच तर कळत नाही
कसा पडलो प्रेमात
अजूनही कळत नाही …
कधी तुझं भेटणं
मला आवडू लागलं कधी तुझ्यासाठी
मन झुरू लागलं
कधी फसलो जाळ्यात
काही समजत नाही
कसा पडलो प्रेमात
अजूनही कळत नाही … तू भेटत गेलीस
मन वेड होत गेलं
कळलं नाही काळजात
कधी घर केलं
तुझा कसा होत गेलो
काही आठवत नाही कसा पडलो प्रेमात
अजूनही कळत नाही …
तुझा गंध श्वासास
कसा गुंतवत गेला
तुझ्या प्रेमात कधी
मला पाडून गेला हे भाव कधी उमलले
हृदयासही कळले नाही
कसा पडलो प्रेमात
अजूनही कळत नाही ....

New Life

It's only the beginning now...
a pathway yet unknown
At times the sound of other steps...
sometimes we walk alone



The best beginnings of our lives
May sometimes end in sorrow
But even on our darkest days
The sun will shine tomorrow.



So we must do our very best
Whatever life may bring
And look beyond the winter chill
To smell the breath of spring.




Into each life will always come
A time to start anew
A new beginning for each heart
As fresh as morning dew.




Although the cares of life are great
And hands are bowed so low
The storms of life will leave behind
The wonder of a rainbow.




The years will never take away
Our chance to start anew
It's only the beginning now
So dreams can still come true.

फक्त तुझ्यासाठी ..!

आयुष्याचा प्रत्येक क्षण तुझ्यासोबत चालत होतो
आणि आज नजरेआड होताना तुलाच पाहत होतो
भावनांचा कल्लोळ मनातून वाहत होतो
वेदनांचे वादळ क्षण क्षण झेलत होतो

भरभरून दिलेस तूच आणि रिक्तही केलेस तूच
सुख देता देता दुःखच फक्त दिलेस तू
अश्रूंचे जळ मी माझ्याच ओंजळीने पीत होतो
तरीही फक्त तुझ्यासाठी सर्व सहन करीत होतो

सुखाची तुझ्या भाषाच निराळी होती
पण माझ्या सुखाची तार तूझ्याशी जुळली होती
मनाचा कोंडमारा सहन करीत जगासाठी हसत होतो
आणि एकांतात फक्त तुझ्यासाठी रडत होतो

का ग तु अशी वागतेस?

तुला पाहिलं कि हृदयाची घंटा वाजते.
तुझि उपस्थिति अख्ख्या जगाचं सुख देउन जाते.
तुझ्या बरोबर जगलेले दिवस,
आयुष्याला खुप आठ्वणी देउन जातात.
मग अलगद विचारावसं वाटत ,
का ग तु अशी वागतेस ..

तुला पाहिलं कि स्वतःला विसरतो,
तुला पाहिलं कि स्वतःला हरवतो,
तुला पाहिलं कि जगच ठेंगन वाटत.
तु प्रत्येक गोष्ट किति सहजतेने समजुन घेतेस ग.
मग अलगद विचारावसं वाटत ,
का ग तु अशी वागतेस ग.

तुला खुप जाणावस वाटत,
तुला खुप ऒळ्खावस वाटत,
सारख तुझ्या सानिध्यात रहावस वाटत.
सर्वात मिसळून जाण्याचि तुझि ति अदा.........
मग अलगद विचारावसं वाटत ,
का ग तु अशी वागतेस ग.

तुझा तो अबोलेपणा, निरागसते चा प्रितिपणा,
मला तुझ वेड लाउन जात.... वेड....
आनंद व्यक्त करणारि तुझी अदा,
जगण्याला महत्व देउन जाते.
मग अलगद विचारावसं वाटत ,
का ग तु अशी वागतेस ग.

तुझ हसणं, तुझ रुसण,
माझ्या आयुष्याला जणू ऊद्देश देउन जातं.
आयुष्यात जणू तुझीच गरज होती,
अस्सं वाटायला लागतं
तुझा विचार जरी मनात आला ना........
तरी गालावर एक गोड्सं हसु देउन जातं.
मग पुन्हा पुन्हा विचारवसं वाटत ग....
का ग तु अशी वागतेस गं....
का ग तु अशी वागतेस गं....

तुझ्यामध्ये आहेत ज्या उणीवा....

तुझ्यामध्ये आहेत ज्या उणीवा
हसत हसत तू काबुल कर
तुझ्यामध्ये आहेत ज्या जाणीवा
ओरडून ओरडून त्यांना जागं कर !!!!!!

झोपलं आहे तुझं जे भाग्य
डोळ्यांवर पाणी ओत खडबडून त्याला जागं कर
हेवा असेल प्रत्येक मनी तुझा
शत्रूवरही जगावेगळं प्रेम तू कर!!!!!!!

जर दिलासा शब्द तू कुणाला
त्या शब्दांचा तू आदर कर
शास्त्रशास्त्र पारंगत असलास जरी तू
तुझ्या अमोघ शब्दांनीच शत्रूला तू पराजित कर !!!!!

असेल जीवन तुझे वादळ वाऱ्यापरी
असेल जीवनी तुझ्या दु:ख आभाळाएवढं
असेल आयुष्य तुझं सदा संघर्षमय
जीवन इतरांचं मात्र प्रकाशित कर !!!!!!!!

Fear

Fear By Ankit

I fear the struggle
I fear the strife
A fear of death
A fear of life

I fear for you
I fear for me
I fear of what
Will come to be

There's plenty to fear
Than fear itself
I fear the pain
and fear poor health

I fear my well
Is running dry
I fear so much
I'm forced to cry

I fear disaster
I fear the knife
I fear the blade
That is my life

I fear the man
I came to be
I fear the dark
And fail to see

I fear life's left me
On the shelf
I fear so much
It harms my health

I fear the help
For which I cry
I fear success
I'm scared to try

Love?

Love? By Ankit

When love has come
But soon is gone
It begs the question
Was it there

The love was lost
And never found
Lost without you
Lost without me
Lost into eternity

The love was just a figment
A figment of our minds
Something we could ponder
But never express

Was it love or just a feeling
Was it love or just healing

Healing from the hatred
The hatred of our hearts
Our past was deep and full of pain
We needed this to release the stain

For this I do not regret
The time with you that I had spent

Death Trap

Death Trap By Ankit

Don't fall too deep
Into the death trap
There is nothing to gain
And everything to lose

You get attached
To people you don't know
Only to get hurt
For their stupid show

Your mind gets boggled
With thoughts that aren't there
Your heart gets crushed
Just so they can snicker

The internet is my trap
Just like many others
Do not fall too deep
Into your death trap

When I Met

When I Met By Ankit

When I met you, just standing there,
winds from all directions in your slick black hair,
Surrounding your face, blowing in the air,
I couldn’t help but to just stand and stare

you stood there alone, no expression on your face
Its like you were seperated from the human race,
You dint move you just stood in place
If you were a card youd be a lonely ace

I searched in my mind for something to say,
But it seemed like my voice had just gone away,
i thought of something, but it was kind of lame
I got so nervous, my hands felt like clay

You looked at me, I saw you, too
We both didnt know what to do
I saw in your eyes, you got the clue
I just had to be with you

I stepped forward, clutching myself tight,
I asked if you were free tonight,
you said sure, I said “alright! ”

Theres always a time that makes your heartbeat,
It’s when you and your true love first meet,
You can feel the sensation from your head to your feet.




That’s the feeling that makes life complete.

Gone But Still Dying Here

Gone But Still Dying Here By Ankit

You were the one, the one I loved and adored
But now that you’re gone I feel as if…
As If I can’t feel anymore.
You were the light that broke throught the night
guiding me forward..
You were the string holding my life in place but now I fall.

I should have told you how I felt
I should have stood up for you
I should have been your helping hand but I was never around to catch your falling tears.

I just wish there was some way to bring you back to me
And maybe just maybe I could show you how this was meant to be.
But now that you’re gone I know you’re watching me
To gaze in you’re eyes would make me faint
To feel your touch would make my own heart skip a beat.
To hear you say those words meant nothing to me back then but now it means my whole world.

I want to be your Boy that you cared about..
I want to be the Boy who believed you when you said “I love you.”
Now that you’re gone I feel as if..I’m dying…

Dying drom the betrayal and pain that now runs through my veins
Dying from your love in which I wish I could have once again….

What is love?

What is love? By Ankit

The age old question. what is love?
Isn’t it the greatest gift from the holy one above
Is it pure and white like a newborn dove?

Does it cuddle you up like a hand in a glove?
What is love? A simple but hard question
What is love? I have a suggestion

Love is peace and love is hope
Love is the referee that gets you off the ropes
Love is a beach of water and sand
Love is the backup to all other plans
Love is unknown to those who hate
Love is the key that gets you into the gate
Love is the sugar that is in candy
Love is a tool that will always come in handy
Love is a leaf on the tree
Love is the wedding ring and Her on one knee
Love is solid like a table
Love is not a myth love is not a fable
Love is true and love is real
You’ll know when you find it by the way you feel

Love is great. It’ll never disappoint you even if it comes late.
L-O-V-E will make you drop you to your knees
Love is the key that opens the door
Love is the thing that you want more and more
Love is the only thing that you live for

The One and Only You

The One and Only You By Ankit

I want you to remember
Those good old days
Those days of happiness
When everything went your way

I want you to cherish these memories
I don't want you to let them go
And I hope they make you happy
As they did so long ago

I wish I could comfort you
Shield you from life's pain
I wish I could just give you everything
You definitely deserve something to gain

You've always told me not to give up
Well here is a lesson for you
If you ever need me, call
That is all you have to do

You've been through so much these days
I'm sure God has something planned out
But in order to see it
You cannot be blinded by doubt

So help me help you
Tell me everything you're going through
Let go of all these troubles
Because the more you hold on the more it doubles

Please, I can see your smile fading
I can hear your voice crack
You may not be near
But you know I got your back

In the past I wasn't always there
Give me a chance this time
I swear on my life I'll be right beside you
To save the emptiness in your mind

With your heart so fragile
With your soul so true
This is a tribute
To the one and only you

So smile your gorgeous smile
Walk with your chin held high
Get up off the ground
Don't let your dreams die

B'coz of You

B'coz of You By Ankit

I'm inside sinful, lost my virtue.
I'm angry now and yes it's at you.
I have been training for a month,
Something that I didn't want.

You made hard tasks to undergo,
I did my best and made it so.
You just care I am trying,
You don't care I am dying.

I'm really dissed now, feeling cheesed off.
For came results and now I'm pissed off.
Don't want to know my result,
I take it as an insult.
You tell me just forget it here,
But I know it will build my fears.
In five years time it'll reappear,
And soon I'm loosing all my peers.

This the thing I didn't want
This the thing I'll have no fun.
You come and cheer me with a smile,
But now I'm mad there's no denial.

It seems okay, you think its nothing,
But in my heart I'm really plunging.
Now I ask you how'd you know?
What I have to undergo?

Because I did it, results ensure,
All this came down, it's a failure.
I did not want it one bit,
For now you made me feel shit.
You think I'm crazy, really lazy.
My mind is clogged up, really hazy.
It looks easy from where you're at,
Why don't you come and try that?

Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike you.
I'm driven with insanity.
Don't want see you for day or two.
I just hate what you did to me.

Get Me Somebody to Kill

Get Me Somebody to Kill By Ankit

I need to kill, for blood to spill
For it would give me such a thrill
And even then I still,
Won't be content until,
You're name is gone, forgotten long.
And everybody thinks you're wrong.
Your life is harshly torn.
Wished you were never born.

I'm in the mood for thrill,
Get me somebody to kill.

Get me away from this forsaken day,
My disarray will bring someone dismay.
Twitching (You're crying) I'm switching (You're dying) from love to my hate,
Scolding, (I'm killing) Withholding (Fulfilling) to decapitate

I'm feeling restless, send distresses,
Feel like slaughter in the masses,
And as time just slowly passes,
I just want to kick some asses.
Come over here, be filled with fear,
I won't be easy, do you hear?
You might just shed a tear,
I'm getting into gear.

I'm in the mood for thrill
Get me somebody to kill

Get me away from this forsaken day,
My disarray will bring someone dismay.
Twitching (You're crying) I'm switching (You're dying) from love to my hate,
Scolding, (I'm killing) Withholding (Fulfilling) to decapitate

Get me somebody to kill (X7)
Get me somebody now.

Madness

Madness By Ankit

I’m deep in soul depression,
Impossible expression,
I cannot say or tell but go unleash my own aggression.
I’m cast alone in fear,
And there’s nobody near,
And so I turn to kills where satisfactions reappear.

I may be seen as mad,
But I’ve got reasons to be sad.
For time is lost and hope is gone,
And there’s no room for me to mourn.
I cannot say that I am blest,
I’m lost and helpless in my mess
While no one helps the need and helpless,
I am drowning in my madness.

I want an axe so I can lop your knob right off your shoulders,
I want you bound and crushed beneath the weight of massive boulders.
I want to break your limbs, and twist them off then I impale you,
I want to grind your bones into the dust till I inhale you.

I may be seen as mad,
But I’ve got reasons to be sad.
For time is lost and hope is gone,
And there’s no room for me to mourn.
So I admit I failed the test,
For self control to be the best.
Because I’m drowning in my sadness,
Going down in my own madness.

For people have been reckless,
The simple souls are jealous,
Enslaving in a palace magnifying every madness.
I wander in a fit,
I’m lost within the pit.
I’m crying out and yelling out but no one gives a shit.

I want to ooze your brains and mash them with my fingertips,
I want to drown the floor with blood till I have soaked my lips.
I want to wrench your corpse till deep within disfiguration.
I want to gnash your guts, till glowing red and hot with friction.

I may be seen as mad,
But I’ve got reasons to be sad.
For time is lost and hope is gone,
And there’s no room for me to mourn.
So I’ll enjoy this killing fest,
While people die I’ll simply jest.
Till streets are soaked and borne in redness,
Unleashing of my own madness.

A place

A place By Ankit

There's a place, goes that way,
And it's not that far away
On my face, there's a ray,
From the yellow sun is gay.
As the sun beats on my back,
At the end of day it's black,
Try to look, it is burnt,
That's one thing I've never learnt,

Where the grass, is so green,
Still can't comprehend that scene.
Lovely sight, there's a mist.
In there pain doesn't exist
Where it's limitless to run,
Where there's nothing else but fun
It exists, such a place,
It's a land worth for a chase.

Where the rain don't make you cold,
Where the air don't make you old.
Where you speak your mind so bold,
Where all secrets can unfold.
Where the endless sky's the sun,
Where there's not a sin nor gun.
Where there's people having fun.
Where you're not the only one

There they are, not that far,
Friends they'll take you as you are.
Endless dawn, timeless morn,
I wish that place I was born.
Multicultural society,
Made of people like you and me.
Where the sun is not just red,
There's no need to rise from bed.

There's a butterfly, so let it flutterby.

Where the rain don't make you cold,
Where the air don't make you old.
Where you speak your mind so bold,
Where all secrets can unfold.
Where the endless sky's the sun,
Where there's people having fun.
Where there's brilliance on my face,
Then I know we're at that place.

I'll be there

I'll be there By Ankit

Heard you're weeping, you are creeping.
Got some work but you are sleeping.
Many sorrows, many follows,
In yourself you feel its hollows.
It's alright you'll pass the night,
When it's due you get a fright.

Do not despair, I will be there,
All your sorrows I will share.
I won't think twice, though not suffice.
I will be there to pay the price.
However far apart we are,
You can count on me the star.
If that's so, you may not see me,
I'll be present spiritually.

You can trust me, though you must be,
Willing to depend on me.
Problem speak free, I will listen,
Try to help you, make things glisten.
Do believe your problems share,
Half them if you couldn't bear.
You can call me anywhere,
I'll be there because I care.

Do not despair, I will be there,
All your sorrows I will share.
Won't think twice, though not suffice.
I will be there to pay the price.
However far apart we are,
You can count on me the star.
If that's so, you may not see me,
I'll be present spiritually.

You Ask me Why

You Ask me Why By Ankit

Why do I admire her?

Everywhere, I go out and see her,
Standing there, I know not another,
Anywhere, We should be together,
Its not fair, That I should forsake her.
Despite all I'm still gonna try.
Now why would I lie if you did ask me why?

Cause

She is so beautiful,
She is so fine,
She is so wonderful,
She's in my mind.

Far away, Though we're apart,
But some day, She'll dwell in my heart,
Glorious ray, She's pretty and smart,
Everyday, For she is an art.
Despite this you still ask me why,
Well I want to be with her the day that I die.

Cause

Her touch is of gentleness,
Her lips full of love,
Her eyes blessed with loveliness,
She comes from above.

Her figure is fine and pure,
Her face is so cute,
Through darkness she can endure,
There's no substitute.

There's no question why.

Don't get me wrong

Don't get me wrong By Ankit

Don't get me wrong when I come along.
I've got friends and I'm going strong.
Definitely it's not that I'm lonely.
It's that you're special to me.

You're obviously not my enemy,
To all I love you're especially,
Kind, love and considerate.
So surprising yet so moderate.
I find there is no one else like you
Just like us in the world are few.
Leave the past it's all history.
You can put out my misery.

I was sad but without ever,
Going mad, I'll endeavour,
Cause of you I felt so bad,
Cause of you right now I'm glad.

See what you did to me,
See what's the change in me.
Can't fall down cause you are there.
Looking after me everywhere.

You held my hand, I understand.
It was your plan, now I feel grand.
For it was you made so for me,
You're never my own enemy.
Cause it was love I did for you.
It shows you my feelings are true.
Won't walk away for what you did,
Unhappiness in me you did rid.

I think I’m alone

I think I’m alone By "Ankit"

I think I’m alone
with no body’s hear me
I think I’m alone
with the tears on my life
I think I’m alone
with the dark so hold me close

I never feel this way before
with all my friend..
Family.. Brother.. Sister..
I’m just trying to send they my scream
I never feel this way to succes..

I’m alone..
From the star I’ll dancing..
The dancing about my tears..
They don’t know about me..
I’m alone and feel the fantastic dissapear..
I know they do..

Do I make they sad ?
Do I make they fall ?
Do I make they cry ?
Do I make they broke ?
Do I make they feel the tears in they life ?
Do I make ever say something that make they feel down ?

No.. No..
Never.. Never.. Never..
Sometimes.. I want to die..
Because I cant to stay in this world to feel the tears..
Sometimes.. I want to die..
Maybe.. Nothing again people can to heal me..

no one but you

no one but you By Ankit Teli

As i look around
in this desolate place
i see no one
but you

face to face
with each soul
searching for my love

none satisfy
this aching pain
burning in this heart

telling me to move on
searching for the one
that compares to you

as time passes
searching turns futile
what im looking for is you
none show up
portrait of you
painted in my memory

Me within Myself

Me within Myself By Ankit Teli

More like a stone is my heart now,
everytime I perform and leave with a bow.
The stage is set, the show is on
I fear the fear still unborn...

I have a scarred heart and the marks still remain,
etched on my soul but I don't feel the pain.
I am drowning within myself
slowly dying, ....... I don't need your help.

Bloodless veins, still belonging to the world of mortal.
Waiting for eternal darkness, standing in front of the portal...

It won't be the end,
It'll be a new begining,
with new performers to perform...
As the Stage is set again and the show must go on......

I talk to myself ,

I talk to myself, By Ankit teli

Asking questions, one after the other.
I try to answer them all,
But nowhere do I find the success.

I talk to you,
Imagining you in my thoughts,
Believe me I find it so real,
As if it's really you sitting right across.

So much do I have to say?
Yet somehow I go silent,
So much do I want to shout?
Yet I hide it into my tears, defeated…
So much do I want to slap you?
But my hands, trembling, frozen…
So much do I want to love you?
But my heart, heavy …. Cheated…..

The Time we built together,
The plant together we planted,
Why suddenly u felt…
I wasn’t the real Friend that u wanted.

That level of comfort,
That easiness, that smoothness,
Where no word was left unsaid,
Why suddenly u felt…
That I will not understand….

That childish behavior,
At times you and at times me,
Teaching each other,
Remember? ? … We both behaved alike…! !
Why suddenly u felt…?
That you are no more a child,
Why did you let that kiddo you die?

I am sorry I cannot accept,
The death of the child within each of us…
I still talk to them
And I find them very much alive…..

That sadness which at times appeared,
We turned them into smiles… 
Holding each others hands we moved on,
Together we walked miles…
Why suddenly you felt,
That my hand was not the one…..
And left me all alone….

Let me admit to you my dear friend,
Living without you… I cannot imagine…
My heart feels weak without your presence…
My eyes…tears.... Posing silence…

I request you, I beg you…
Please don’t leave me…
Please don’t go….

tomorrow never came

tomorrow never came By Ankit teli

why did you promise tomorrow?
tomorrow never came and i was never the same
that why i insist on holding on to today.

what is in my dreams?
if i am tormented by your beuaty
and memories of your image is all i see
please have mercy on me
and set me free

reality looks so bleek
when you no longer stand next to me
when i dont run to where youll be
when we are no longer complete

is it fair to blame our destiny?
for dealing us with this reality
and ruining all our fantasies
of a life where all our dreams come true for you and me

let me say that i wish it so
but deep inside i know its no
that faith for me was to be alone
and in my nights with missery is how i cope

i guess its not all bad
because i make everyone laugh while i stay sad
fake emotions to blend in glad

ask my self when will i be ok
i pray the lord helps me along my way
but if forever i am to feel this pain
i will understand that i am too, partly to blame
but i will always wonder why?
our tomorrow never came

Sorry, I am so sorry my love...

Sorry, I am so sorry my love... By Ankit Teli

Sorry, I am so sorry my love. I hurt you without any reason
Your tears made my heart cry. Why I did to you that I don't know
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love

Sorry, I am so sorry my love. I scold you without any reason
Your pain made my heart to think
My cruel heart suspects you for nothing
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love

Sorry, I am so sorry my love. I did not mean to hurt you
When you cry then I cry more than you
Because I love you all my heart and soul
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love

Sorry, I am so sorry my love
I told you that I would never hurt you again
but again I made your tears flow once more
Now, I promise you that I will not hurt you again
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love.

I will paint our love,,,

I will paint our love,,, By Ankit Teli

I will paint our love
With the colors of the rainbow
As clear as the raindrops
With the golden frames of moonlight and stars at night

I will paint our love
With the waves of our heartbeats
With the glow of your smiling eyes
As beautiful as your voice when you sing

I will paint our love
It may look nostalgic and ironic
Like I painted a rose in blue
No one could understand, only me and you

Wherever you go
Whatever I became
Our portrait of love won't fade away
Coz in our hearts, this will live for eternity

Do you know how many feelings i carry in my heart...

Do you know how many feelings i carry in my heart... By Ankit teli


Do you know how many feelings i carry in my heart,
how do i end my day and how do i start.
Missing you and longing 4 u is all i can do,
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how many unspoken words i wanna say,
how can i say i keep on finding the ways.
Loving you and praying 4 you is all i can do
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how many dreams i have in my eyes,
how can i fulfill them i keep on telling the lies.
Preaching you and caring 4 you is all i can do,
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how much pain is deep in my soul,
how do i bear them and keep trying to come out of the whole,
Searching you and urging 4 u is all i can do
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how much I LOVE YOU,
i wanna tell but unable to do.
Missing u, loving u, preaching u, searching u , wat else i can do,
I wish as i feel you feel the same too........

I'm So Sorry...

I'm So Sorry... By Ankit teli

I'm sorry of being so emotional
I'm sorry of being so possessive
I'm sorry that I cry for you
I'm sorry because I can't live without you

I'm sorry for the tears you shed
I'm sorry for the damage I made
I'm sorry I've made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep

I'm sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I'm sorry for each and every fight
I'm sorry for your pain & agony
I'm sorry for the missing harmony

I'm sorry for my selfish love
I'm sorry for not caring enough
I'm sorry for my restlessness
I'm sorry for the losing grace

I'm sorry my friend I made you mad
I'm sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it's my disgrace

I'm sorry for thinking of you so very much
I'm sorry I always miss your touch
I'm sorry of being so mad about you
I'm sorry for my every blue

I'm sorry of being so immature
I'm sorry now that can't be cured
I'm sorry of being myself
I'm sorry that I've failed

I'm sorry and sorry again
I'm sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry for my ugly face
I'm sorry that I'm stupid

I'm even sorry for my race
I'm sorry I'm not funny
I'm sorry I'm not smart
I'm sorry I cant tell you

The truth within my heart
I'm sorry that you hate me
I'm sorry I'm in love
I'm sorry I act the way I do

I never thought it'd matter to you
I'm sorry for the tears I cry
I'm sorry I'm a failure in your eye
I'm sorry for a lot of things

But one thing im not sorry for
I'm not sorry for being me.

Life Goes On ....

Life Goes On .. By Ankit teli

In every human life,
there are some moments when one is sad and depressed
Frustrated from every zone of life,
And feel like leaving everything & going away
And Life Goes on …

Some moments in which
one is wrapped with tensions
one wants to get out of them
and fly high in the sky
But cant run away, and life goes on …

Some moments in which,
one who adores hurts sentiments,
one needs a support, a shoulder to dry on,
But doesn’t find one , and life goes on …

Some moments in which one gets tired of life
or so intensely hurt that one wants to die
one wishes to end up with
life at that very moment, and life goes on …

And in every human life on day arrives
When there is a big halt to one’s life.
And then the people cry
and show that they were concerned

Then the question arises
Do they wait for one’s death,
To care, To understand the one
If so, then wait till death and untill then
LIFE GOES ON …

In Search Of Destiny Door

In Search Of Destiny Door By Ankit teli


My life is completely messed up,
Like a dark, thick soup lying in a cup,
No color, no life, just so still,
And the numbers of joys are always nill.

I am walking on a lonely road,
In the dark night.
All I can see is the popping toad,
And the bat’s scary flight.

I don’t know what to do or where to go?
All I know that I am feeling very low.
Sometimes in this lonely and unreasonable journey,
I stop for a moment to think, WHY?
Why to me people always hate?
Why in my life joys and sorrows never equate.
Why does God; for me, never opens the gate,
Of his lovely and beautiful estate.
Where everything goes in it’s own routine,
And to hurt others, people are never keen.
Where people like me, never live,
As their life never rip.

But when unable to find answers,
To my unending Questions.
I start to walk again,
In that lonely and never ending lane.

Then like a shadow, I disappear…
Into the deep darkness, which is never, clear.
So on and on and forever, I walk,
With sorrows, ignorance, problems and no one to talk,
Just to find the DESTINY DOOR on which I can “KNOCK

5 Minutes

5 Minutes By Ankit teli

a crazy day it was
things that i should not have said
things that i should not have done
had all been said and done
in 5 minutes

i stormed out of the building
with a view to run away
run away to a place where no one can disturb

i wanted to spend 5 minutes alone
i wanted to sit down and think
of what i said
of what i did

riding my bike
with the wind behind me
i rushed into the evening traffic
hoping to set right certain things

blinded by fury
clouded by sadness
i was a maniac on the roads
driving at the speed of light

i sped past everyone
stopping nowhere
i reached my destination
a small little cafe
in the middle of the city

escaping a chaotic and fast paced city
i stepped inside a shangrila
with no one to disturb
with no one seemingly caring a dime
i took my place in the corner
placed my order
and set about thinking
about what i had done

5 minutes all it took
for the gates of heaven to open up
5 minutes of madness
now washed away by 5 minutes of realization

5 minutes it took
to find myself once again
5 minutes is all it took
for me to find life once again

5 minutes of crying out (loud)
is all that was needed
if only i thought about it all
for a mere 5 minutes

a time of sorrow
now washed away in just 5 minutes
a lifetime full of happiness
now back inside me in just 5 minutes

Honey, I Miss You

honey, I Miss You By Ankit teli

I’m sitting here
near the window
I reminisce
and think about you
The days we used to share
It’s driving me crazy
I just don’t know what to do
I’m just wondering if you do care?

I don’t wanna let you know
how I feel
How the pain is
That is killing me
How difficult it is
To kill time without you
I know you’ve got things to do
things to look into
But do you feel the same
As I do?


It’s been a long time
I am lost without you
Since you went away
I don’t really feel like talking
I forgot how it is to eat
How it feels to sleep
There’s no one here to love me
Honey do you understand?
I can’t do or be without you
Can you hear me calling for you?

No one knows me

No one knows me By Ankit teli


Walk with me in burden
come sit and feel my grief

watch out for damaged waste

in terms of wrong, I am chief

Hold my hand in darkness

come feel the fear within my heart

watch out for haunting ghosts

In this horror movie I play the worst part

Sit next to me in sadness

Come hear the cries of my pain

Watch out for broken glass fragments

In this storm, I am the rain

Stand firm with me in catastrophe

Come hold my hand in yours

Watch out for the uncertain things

In this world, we are caught in wars

Talk to me in hope

Come see if my future holds a brighter day

Watch out for the obstacles

In this winding path, I tend to lose my way

Sing to me in heavenly praises

Come skip with me in my moment of bad

Watch out for blinding rays of sunshine

In this happiness, I sometimes can not see

Stuck in a dream

Stuck in a dream By Ankit teli

sitting inside the train
after finishing work
i watch the people
rush home just like me

like migrating birds
travelling a long distance
i make this daily journey
from one end to another

i make this journey
from one end to another
to keep me distracted
from all things i am missing

a loving family i left behind
my happiness knew no limits
sadness brushed outside with ease
living a life as it should be

eager to climb up the ladder
eager to prove people wrong
i sacrificed happiness
i traded joy for “loneliness”

with my eyes watching the exit
my heart yearns out to
the home i left behind
while looking to rebuild my nest

Thinking about a lot of things

thinking about a lot of things By Ankit teli


i had been thinking,
thinking about a lot of things
from the little boy in the playground
to the granny in the park!

from the things i had done years ago
to what i did yesterday
been thinking what i am doing now
to what i will be doing tomorrow!

a lot of choices;
a lot of options;
life is about choices, everyone says
and choosing the options wisely

from the road less travelled
to the most crowded streets
i had made the choices
and chosen the options my way!

now, tired of all this
and the mask slowly wearing off
i am being forced to choose
i have to make one final choice.

standing at the door,
do i reapply the makeup
and continue to wear this mask (forever)
or do i give in to life’s desires?

Keep Dreaming

Keep Dreaming By Ankit teli

afraid of what I would see
if I peeked inside,
I became deaf and dumb
to the emotions that my heart cried out;

the day slowly slips by
bringing nothing to conclusion
bringing nothing new to light,
it slowly dragged on the inevitable;

with every step that I take,
my confidence grows even further
allowing me to take on everything
allowing me to acknowledge my emotions;

like a wild fire, that went out of control,
the madness around me morphed from a
child with no fears, into an adult
scared to accept what my hearts cries out;

it seems that I knew this forever,
lying within me, making it presence felt now and then,
like the seasons changing,
my mind changed what I once thought was forever;

time slipped so quickly,
and before I could take a breath,
I realized it’s now or never,
I realized how much I had lost;

shrouded by the safe haven I built around me,
I failed to acknowledge the beautiful sun shining outside,
I failed to notice the chirping of the birds,
I forgot to laugh and smile enjoying the things I like to do;

as each wave of emotions came in slowly,
under the bright light of the moon,
I stood here hypnotized by the glow of
what life still has to offer;

amidst the chaos of my soul,
one dim light still flickered on,
strong enough to prevent the
darkness engulfing my soul completely;

strong enough to keep the
river of dreams flowing
to keep dreaming of a wonderful
beginning for you and me together;

Have I lost you ?

Have I lost you ? By Ankit teli

There was a time when we walked hand-in-hand,

Without a care in the world for love was near.

And then we paused on a road

Went carelessly into a dark

Where time stood still for a while..



We were groping for each other’s warmth

Trying to find our way out of this dark

Do we still care, we asked one day

And the abyss grew darker



We moved our separate ways,

Found new roads to explore

But my heart still longs for you

Asks “Have I lost you ?”



I want to come back to the alley

Will you be there ?

Will you let us find our way out together

Out on a single road,

Hands and hearts like olden times ?

Me,Myself and I

Me,Myself and I By Ankit teli
coming out of the shadows
of the past and reaching
to the light that is now
shining in its glory
i realized i am standing all alone,
with the whole world at my disposal;

i searched, i needed somebody
to continue the exploration,
or so i thought; how
naive and so dumb one can become;

wasting precious time
doing nothing other
than wandering through life
i became more confused than before;

unable to run anymore,
i sat down to take stock
and i realized i got
me, myself and i;

learned a lot along the way,
and now my very own best friend
exploring uncharted territories
me myself and i
that’s all i got in the end
that’s what i found out
me, myself and i;

दुरावा

कितीही दुर आलो जरी
तरीही तुझ्या सोबत मी,
सखे रडणं थांबवं आता
तुझ्या हसण्यात सुद्दा मी

डोळे ओले माझेही झाले,
अस्वस्थ झालो अन् नाराज,
पण उद्या भेटणं आहेचं नक्की,
जरी दुर झालो आज

अंतरामध्ये मोजलं तर,
दुरावा खुप मोठा आहे,
पण हा दुरावा खुप लहान आहे,
कारण तु माझ्या अंतरात आहेस

कधी हसवून मला हसवणारी,
स्वतः रडून मला भिजवणारी,
प्रेयसीचं नातं जपतानाचं,
बायकोसारखं प्रेम करणारी

तुझ्या डोळ्यातला प्रत्येक थेंब,
कसा काय सांग वाया जाईल,
जपुन ठेव तुझ्या अश्रुधारा,
लग्नामध्ये त्याचा उपयोग होईल.

हा तात्पुर्ता दुरावा आहे,
समजुन घेईल माझं गोड बाळ,
दिसा मागे दिस बुडुन
सरुन जाईल हा काळ

घडयाळाचे काटे आहोत आपण,
दिशांनी वेगळे सोडलेले,
काही क्षणासाठी बोलतो आपण,
पण ह्रदयापासुन जोडलेले

"आई मागितली असती"

दु:खाच्या डोंगराखाली
दबलेल ते बालपण
रोजचं होता वैशाख
कधी दिसलाचं नाही श्रावण

नव्हता आपल्यांचा आपलेपणा
नव्हती भाग्याची साथ
लेकराच्या डोक्यावर ठेवायला
नव्हता मायेचा तो हात

कधी नाही पाहीली बासुंदी
कधी पाहिला नाही मुरंबा..
बहीण बापुडी काय करणार
नव्हता बापाचाही खांदा.

जेव्हा मला माय
सोडुन निघुन गेली
डोळ्यातली ओली
आसवं सुकुन गेली.

कधी कधी ते एकटेपणाचं सावटं
मनात काहुर माजवायचं
माय परत येईल
भोळ मन स्वप्न सजवायचं

बालपण सारं गेलं
वेदनांच्या सागरात बुडुन
मग संस्कारांचा
मऊपणा येणार तरी कुठुन

नव्हती मायेची सावली
नव्हता प्रेमाचा गारवा
सुकून गेलं रोपट
पण मिळला नाही ओलावा

आज ही दुःखाची सावट
तशीचं राहीली
कधी मायेचा उबारा
कधी माया नाही पाहीली

नको धनदौलत नको संपत्ती
कशावरचं आशा ठेवली नसती
देवाने काही मागायला सांगितलं असतं
तर मी "आई मागितली असती"

प्रेम

प्रेम शब्दावर येऊन
अडकून बसणं म्हणजे प्रेम
दोन मनांना जोडलेल्या शब्दात
गुंतुन बसण म्हणजे प्रेम

छोट्याशा कारणाने त्याची
आठवण येणं म्हणजे प्रेम
आठवण कधी येत नाही तिची
तिला न विसरणं म्हणजे प्रेम

आयुष्य चालण्य़ाची प्रेरणा
नवा श्वास देणं म्हणजे प्रेम
कायमची सोबत असल्याचा
विश्वास देणं म्हणजे प्रेम

मनानं विचार करणं
शब्दात जगणं म्हणजे प्रेम
अर्धी रात्र बोलणं बसणं
खुळ्यागत वागणं म्हणजे प्रेम

कधी प्रेमाच्या नावाने
खुप खुप भांडण म्हणजे प्रेम
नुसताचं आवाज ऐकून
मनाला जाणणं म्हणजे प्रेम

कधी भावूक होऊन
शब्द अवघडणं म्हणजे प्रेम
ती मुसमुसू लागल्यावर
माझ रडणं म्हणजे प्रेम

कधी उगाचं खटयाळपणे
तिला छळणं म्हणजे प्रेम
तिला होणा-या त्रासाने
जीव जळणं म्हणजे प्रेम

एका क्षणात प्रेमविश्वात
रमणं म्हणजे प्रेम
हळवी माऊ, खट्याळ बोक्याची
जोडी जमणं म्हणजे प्रेम

प्रेम नावाची कवीता
पुरी करणं म्हणजे प्रेम
सगळ्यांसाठी जगूनसुद्दा
तीचा उरण म्हणजे प्रेम

होईल ते पाहता येईल म्हणुन
चालतं राहणं म्हणजे प्रेम
एकमेकांना भेटण्याची
वाट् पाहणं म्हणजे प्रेम

कोकण किनारा सोबत फ़िरण्याची
स्वप्न म्हणजे प्रेम
'तु अन् मी' ला फुलासारखं
जपण म्हणजे प्रेम