B'coz of You

B'coz of You By Ankit

I'm inside sinful, lost my virtue.
I'm angry now and yes it's at you.
I have been training for a month,
Something that I didn't want.

You made hard tasks to undergo,
I did my best and made it so.
You just care I am trying,
You don't care I am dying.

I'm really dissed now, feeling cheesed off.
For came results and now I'm pissed off.
Don't want to know my result,
I take it as an insult.
You tell me just forget it here,
But I know it will build my fears.
In five years time it'll reappear,
And soon I'm loosing all my peers.

This the thing I didn't want
This the thing I'll have no fun.
You come and cheer me with a smile,
But now I'm mad there's no denial.

It seems okay, you think its nothing,
But in my heart I'm really plunging.
Now I ask you how'd you know?
What I have to undergo?

Because I did it, results ensure,
All this came down, it's a failure.
I did not want it one bit,
For now you made me feel shit.
You think I'm crazy, really lazy.
My mind is clogged up, really hazy.
It looks easy from where you're at,
Why don't you come and try that?

Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike you.
I'm driven with insanity.
Don't want see you for day or two.
I just hate what you did to me.

Get Me Somebody to Kill

Get Me Somebody to Kill By Ankit

I need to kill, for blood to spill
For it would give me such a thrill
And even then I still,
Won't be content until,
You're name is gone, forgotten long.
And everybody thinks you're wrong.
Your life is harshly torn.
Wished you were never born.

I'm in the mood for thrill,
Get me somebody to kill.

Get me away from this forsaken day,
My disarray will bring someone dismay.
Twitching (You're crying) I'm switching (You're dying) from love to my hate,
Scolding, (I'm killing) Withholding (Fulfilling) to decapitate

I'm feeling restless, send distresses,
Feel like slaughter in the masses,
And as time just slowly passes,
I just want to kick some asses.
Come over here, be filled with fear,
I won't be easy, do you hear?
You might just shed a tear,
I'm getting into gear.

I'm in the mood for thrill
Get me somebody to kill

Get me away from this forsaken day,
My disarray will bring someone dismay.
Twitching (You're crying) I'm switching (You're dying) from love to my hate,
Scolding, (I'm killing) Withholding (Fulfilling) to decapitate

Get me somebody to kill (X7)
Get me somebody now.

Madness

Madness By Ankit

I’m deep in soul depression,
Impossible expression,
I cannot say or tell but go unleash my own aggression.
I’m cast alone in fear,
And there’s nobody near,
And so I turn to kills where satisfactions reappear.

I may be seen as mad,
But I’ve got reasons to be sad.
For time is lost and hope is gone,
And there’s no room for me to mourn.
I cannot say that I am blest,
I’m lost and helpless in my mess
While no one helps the need and helpless,
I am drowning in my madness.

I want an axe so I can lop your knob right off your shoulders,
I want you bound and crushed beneath the weight of massive boulders.
I want to break your limbs, and twist them off then I impale you,
I want to grind your bones into the dust till I inhale you.

I may be seen as mad,
But I’ve got reasons to be sad.
For time is lost and hope is gone,
And there’s no room for me to mourn.
So I admit I failed the test,
For self control to be the best.
Because I’m drowning in my sadness,
Going down in my own madness.

For people have been reckless,
The simple souls are jealous,
Enslaving in a palace magnifying every madness.
I wander in a fit,
I’m lost within the pit.
I’m crying out and yelling out but no one gives a shit.

I want to ooze your brains and mash them with my fingertips,
I want to drown the floor with blood till I have soaked my lips.
I want to wrench your corpse till deep within disfiguration.
I want to gnash your guts, till glowing red and hot with friction.

I may be seen as mad,
But I’ve got reasons to be sad.
For time is lost and hope is gone,
And there’s no room for me to mourn.
So I’ll enjoy this killing fest,
While people die I’ll simply jest.
Till streets are soaked and borne in redness,
Unleashing of my own madness.

A place

A place By Ankit

There's a place, goes that way,
And it's not that far away
On my face, there's a ray,
From the yellow sun is gay.
As the sun beats on my back,
At the end of day it's black,
Try to look, it is burnt,
That's one thing I've never learnt,

Where the grass, is so green,
Still can't comprehend that scene.
Lovely sight, there's a mist.
In there pain doesn't exist
Where it's limitless to run,
Where there's nothing else but fun
It exists, such a place,
It's a land worth for a chase.

Where the rain don't make you cold,
Where the air don't make you old.
Where you speak your mind so bold,
Where all secrets can unfold.
Where the endless sky's the sun,
Where there's not a sin nor gun.
Where there's people having fun.
Where you're not the only one

There they are, not that far,
Friends they'll take you as you are.
Endless dawn, timeless morn,
I wish that place I was born.
Multicultural society,
Made of people like you and me.
Where the sun is not just red,
There's no need to rise from bed.

There's a butterfly, so let it flutterby.

Where the rain don't make you cold,
Where the air don't make you old.
Where you speak your mind so bold,
Where all secrets can unfold.
Where the endless sky's the sun,
Where there's people having fun.
Where there's brilliance on my face,
Then I know we're at that place.

I'll be there

I'll be there By Ankit

Heard you're weeping, you are creeping.
Got some work but you are sleeping.
Many sorrows, many follows,
In yourself you feel its hollows.
It's alright you'll pass the night,
When it's due you get a fright.

Do not despair, I will be there,
All your sorrows I will share.
I won't think twice, though not suffice.
I will be there to pay the price.
However far apart we are,
You can count on me the star.
If that's so, you may not see me,
I'll be present spiritually.

You can trust me, though you must be,
Willing to depend on me.
Problem speak free, I will listen,
Try to help you, make things glisten.
Do believe your problems share,
Half them if you couldn't bear.
You can call me anywhere,
I'll be there because I care.

Do not despair, I will be there,
All your sorrows I will share.
Won't think twice, though not suffice.
I will be there to pay the price.
However far apart we are,
You can count on me the star.
If that's so, you may not see me,
I'll be present spiritually.

You Ask me Why

You Ask me Why By Ankit

Why do I admire her?

Everywhere, I go out and see her,
Standing there, I know not another,
Anywhere, We should be together,
Its not fair, That I should forsake her.
Despite all I'm still gonna try.
Now why would I lie if you did ask me why?

Cause

She is so beautiful,
She is so fine,
She is so wonderful,
She's in my mind.

Far away, Though we're apart,
But some day, She'll dwell in my heart,
Glorious ray, She's pretty and smart,
Everyday, For she is an art.
Despite this you still ask me why,
Well I want to be with her the day that I die.

Cause

Her touch is of gentleness,
Her lips full of love,
Her eyes blessed with loveliness,
She comes from above.

Her figure is fine and pure,
Her face is so cute,
Through darkness she can endure,
There's no substitute.

There's no question why.

Don't get me wrong

Don't get me wrong By Ankit

Don't get me wrong when I come along.
I've got friends and I'm going strong.
Definitely it's not that I'm lonely.
It's that you're special to me.

You're obviously not my enemy,
To all I love you're especially,
Kind, love and considerate.
So surprising yet so moderate.
I find there is no one else like you
Just like us in the world are few.
Leave the past it's all history.
You can put out my misery.

I was sad but without ever,
Going mad, I'll endeavour,
Cause of you I felt so bad,
Cause of you right now I'm glad.

See what you did to me,
See what's the change in me.
Can't fall down cause you are there.
Looking after me everywhere.

You held my hand, I understand.
It was your plan, now I feel grand.
For it was you made so for me,
You're never my own enemy.
Cause it was love I did for you.
It shows you my feelings are true.
Won't walk away for what you did,
Unhappiness in me you did rid.

I think I’m alone

I think I’m alone By "Ankit"

I think I’m alone
with no body’s hear me
I think I’m alone
with the tears on my life
I think I’m alone
with the dark so hold me close

I never feel this way before
with all my friend..
Family.. Brother.. Sister..
I’m just trying to send they my scream
I never feel this way to succes..

I’m alone..
From the star I’ll dancing..
The dancing about my tears..
They don’t know about me..
I’m alone and feel the fantastic dissapear..
I know they do..

Do I make they sad ?
Do I make they fall ?
Do I make they cry ?
Do I make they broke ?
Do I make they feel the tears in they life ?
Do I make ever say something that make they feel down ?

No.. No..
Never.. Never.. Never..
Sometimes.. I want to die..
Because I cant to stay in this world to feel the tears..
Sometimes.. I want to die..
Maybe.. Nothing again people can to heal me..

no one but you

no one but you By Ankit Teli

As i look around
in this desolate place
i see no one
but you

face to face
with each soul
searching for my love

none satisfy
this aching pain
burning in this heart

telling me to move on
searching for the one
that compares to you

as time passes
searching turns futile
what im looking for is you
none show up
portrait of you
painted in my memory

Me within Myself

Me within Myself By Ankit Teli

More like a stone is my heart now,
everytime I perform and leave with a bow.
The stage is set, the show is on
I fear the fear still unborn...

I have a scarred heart and the marks still remain,
etched on my soul but I don't feel the pain.
I am drowning within myself
slowly dying, ....... I don't need your help.

Bloodless veins, still belonging to the world of mortal.
Waiting for eternal darkness, standing in front of the portal...

It won't be the end,
It'll be a new begining,
with new performers to perform...
As the Stage is set again and the show must go on......

I talk to myself ,

I talk to myself, By Ankit teli

Asking questions, one after the other.
I try to answer them all,
But nowhere do I find the success.

I talk to you,
Imagining you in my thoughts,
Believe me I find it so real,
As if it's really you sitting right across.

So much do I have to say?
Yet somehow I go silent,
So much do I want to shout?
Yet I hide it into my tears, defeated…
So much do I want to slap you?
But my hands, trembling, frozen…
So much do I want to love you?
But my heart, heavy …. Cheated…..

The Time we built together,
The plant together we planted,
Why suddenly u felt…
I wasn’t the real Friend that u wanted.

That level of comfort,
That easiness, that smoothness,
Where no word was left unsaid,
Why suddenly u felt…
That I will not understand….

That childish behavior,
At times you and at times me,
Teaching each other,
Remember? ? … We both behaved alike…! !
Why suddenly u felt…?
That you are no more a child,
Why did you let that kiddo you die?

I am sorry I cannot accept,
The death of the child within each of us…
I still talk to them
And I find them very much alive…..

That sadness which at times appeared,
We turned them into smiles… 
Holding each others hands we moved on,
Together we walked miles…
Why suddenly you felt,
That my hand was not the one…..
And left me all alone….

Let me admit to you my dear friend,
Living without you… I cannot imagine…
My heart feels weak without your presence…
My eyes…tears.... Posing silence…

I request you, I beg you…
Please don’t leave me…
Please don’t go….

tomorrow never came

tomorrow never came By Ankit teli

why did you promise tomorrow?
tomorrow never came and i was never the same
that why i insist on holding on to today.

what is in my dreams?
if i am tormented by your beuaty
and memories of your image is all i see
please have mercy on me
and set me free

reality looks so bleek
when you no longer stand next to me
when i dont run to where youll be
when we are no longer complete

is it fair to blame our destiny?
for dealing us with this reality
and ruining all our fantasies
of a life where all our dreams come true for you and me

let me say that i wish it so
but deep inside i know its no
that faith for me was to be alone
and in my nights with missery is how i cope

i guess its not all bad
because i make everyone laugh while i stay sad
fake emotions to blend in glad

ask my self when will i be ok
i pray the lord helps me along my way
but if forever i am to feel this pain
i will understand that i am too, partly to blame
but i will always wonder why?
our tomorrow never came

Sorry, I am so sorry my love...

Sorry, I am so sorry my love... By Ankit Teli

Sorry, I am so sorry my love. I hurt you without any reason
Your tears made my heart cry. Why I did to you that I don't know
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love

Sorry, I am so sorry my love. I scold you without any reason
Your pain made my heart to think
My cruel heart suspects you for nothing
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love

Sorry, I am so sorry my love. I did not mean to hurt you
When you cry then I cry more than you
Because I love you all my heart and soul
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love

Sorry, I am so sorry my love
I told you that I would never hurt you again
but again I made your tears flow once more
Now, I promise you that I will not hurt you again
Forgive me! I am so sorry my love.

I will paint our love,,,

I will paint our love,,, By Ankit Teli

I will paint our love
With the colors of the rainbow
As clear as the raindrops
With the golden frames of moonlight and stars at night

I will paint our love
With the waves of our heartbeats
With the glow of your smiling eyes
As beautiful as your voice when you sing

I will paint our love
It may look nostalgic and ironic
Like I painted a rose in blue
No one could understand, only me and you

Wherever you go
Whatever I became
Our portrait of love won't fade away
Coz in our hearts, this will live for eternity

Do you know how many feelings i carry in my heart...

Do you know how many feelings i carry in my heart... By Ankit teli


Do you know how many feelings i carry in my heart,
how do i end my day and how do i start.
Missing you and longing 4 u is all i can do,
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how many unspoken words i wanna say,
how can i say i keep on finding the ways.
Loving you and praying 4 you is all i can do
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how many dreams i have in my eyes,
how can i fulfill them i keep on telling the lies.
Preaching you and caring 4 you is all i can do,
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how much pain is deep in my soul,
how do i bear them and keep trying to come out of the whole,
Searching you and urging 4 u is all i can do
but i wish as i feel you feel the same too.

Do you know how much I LOVE YOU,
i wanna tell but unable to do.
Missing u, loving u, preaching u, searching u , wat else i can do,
I wish as i feel you feel the same too........

I'm So Sorry...

I'm So Sorry... By Ankit teli

I'm sorry of being so emotional
I'm sorry of being so possessive
I'm sorry that I cry for you
I'm sorry because I can't live without you

I'm sorry for the tears you shed
I'm sorry for the damage I made
I'm sorry I've made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep

I'm sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I'm sorry for each and every fight
I'm sorry for your pain & agony
I'm sorry for the missing harmony

I'm sorry for my selfish love
I'm sorry for not caring enough
I'm sorry for my restlessness
I'm sorry for the losing grace

I'm sorry my friend I made you mad
I'm sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it's my disgrace

I'm sorry for thinking of you so very much
I'm sorry I always miss your touch
I'm sorry of being so mad about you
I'm sorry for my every blue

I'm sorry of being so immature
I'm sorry now that can't be cured
I'm sorry of being myself
I'm sorry that I've failed

I'm sorry and sorry again
I'm sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry for my ugly face
I'm sorry that I'm stupid

I'm even sorry for my race
I'm sorry I'm not funny
I'm sorry I'm not smart
I'm sorry I cant tell you

The truth within my heart
I'm sorry that you hate me
I'm sorry I'm in love
I'm sorry I act the way I do

I never thought it'd matter to you
I'm sorry for the tears I cry
I'm sorry I'm a failure in your eye
I'm sorry for a lot of things

But one thing im not sorry for
I'm not sorry for being me.

Life Goes On ....

Life Goes On .. By Ankit teli

In every human life,
there are some moments when one is sad and depressed
Frustrated from every zone of life,
And feel like leaving everything & going away
And Life Goes on …

Some moments in which
one is wrapped with tensions
one wants to get out of them
and fly high in the sky
But cant run away, and life goes on …

Some moments in which,
one who adores hurts sentiments,
one needs a support, a shoulder to dry on,
But doesn’t find one , and life goes on …

Some moments in which one gets tired of life
or so intensely hurt that one wants to die
one wishes to end up with
life at that very moment, and life goes on …

And in every human life on day arrives
When there is a big halt to one’s life.
And then the people cry
and show that they were concerned

Then the question arises
Do they wait for one’s death,
To care, To understand the one
If so, then wait till death and untill then
LIFE GOES ON …

In Search Of Destiny Door

In Search Of Destiny Door By Ankit teli


My life is completely messed up,
Like a dark, thick soup lying in a cup,
No color, no life, just so still,
And the numbers of joys are always nill.

I am walking on a lonely road,
In the dark night.
All I can see is the popping toad,
And the bat’s scary flight.

I don’t know what to do or where to go?
All I know that I am feeling very low.
Sometimes in this lonely and unreasonable journey,
I stop for a moment to think, WHY?
Why to me people always hate?
Why in my life joys and sorrows never equate.
Why does God; for me, never opens the gate,
Of his lovely and beautiful estate.
Where everything goes in it’s own routine,
And to hurt others, people are never keen.
Where people like me, never live,
As their life never rip.

But when unable to find answers,
To my unending Questions.
I start to walk again,
In that lonely and never ending lane.

Then like a shadow, I disappear…
Into the deep darkness, which is never, clear.
So on and on and forever, I walk,
With sorrows, ignorance, problems and no one to talk,
Just to find the DESTINY DOOR on which I can “KNOCK

5 Minutes

5 Minutes By Ankit teli

a crazy day it was
things that i should not have said
things that i should not have done
had all been said and done
in 5 minutes

i stormed out of the building
with a view to run away
run away to a place where no one can disturb

i wanted to spend 5 minutes alone
i wanted to sit down and think
of what i said
of what i did

riding my bike
with the wind behind me
i rushed into the evening traffic
hoping to set right certain things

blinded by fury
clouded by sadness
i was a maniac on the roads
driving at the speed of light

i sped past everyone
stopping nowhere
i reached my destination
a small little cafe
in the middle of the city

escaping a chaotic and fast paced city
i stepped inside a shangrila
with no one to disturb
with no one seemingly caring a dime
i took my place in the corner
placed my order
and set about thinking
about what i had done

5 minutes all it took
for the gates of heaven to open up
5 minutes of madness
now washed away by 5 minutes of realization

5 minutes it took
to find myself once again
5 minutes is all it took
for me to find life once again

5 minutes of crying out (loud)
is all that was needed
if only i thought about it all
for a mere 5 minutes

a time of sorrow
now washed away in just 5 minutes
a lifetime full of happiness
now back inside me in just 5 minutes

Honey, I Miss You

honey, I Miss You By Ankit teli

I’m sitting here
near the window
I reminisce
and think about you
The days we used to share
It’s driving me crazy
I just don’t know what to do
I’m just wondering if you do care?

I don’t wanna let you know
how I feel
How the pain is
That is killing me
How difficult it is
To kill time without you
I know you’ve got things to do
things to look into
But do you feel the same
As I do?


It’s been a long time
I am lost without you
Since you went away
I don’t really feel like talking
I forgot how it is to eat
How it feels to sleep
There’s no one here to love me
Honey do you understand?
I can’t do or be without you
Can you hear me calling for you?